Suicidal Dream

Thoughts fill up my mind.
Whats he doing right now?
Is he with her??
I'm so lost in a world of fear I don't know what to do.
I need help, I need confidence
Stuck in a mind of confusion
It feels so wrong
But I put the gun to my head and pull the trigger
BANG it's all gone
Now there's a tingly feeling
I see people crying around me
I'm looking up towards the sky
Is it all over?

By Nell
Done Date, September 1, 2000